've posted this on a couple other sites, and I'll post it here as well...
Ok, as most of you know, I had a very bad night about a month ago. I'm here to clear up a few things.
1. I made a series of VERY VERY stupid mistakes. I, more than anyone feel horrible about what happened. It wasn't planned, and I was being stupid. I have thanked God every day that the guy in the SUV is alive. I'm ok as well, physically.
2. The guy in the SUV DID go to the hospital, then was booked into 4th ave for warrants. He claimed to have broken ribs, but that is false. He was not hurt beyond some bumps and bruises, again THANK GOD!
3. I am facing several charges, and I have kicked myself in the ass every second since this ordeal happened. Not just for the charges, but for the stupidity. I was very dumb that night, and I can only attribute it to adrenaline. I blame nobody, and I know how ****ing stupid I was being.
4. The reason I was trying so hard to sell that TTA was because I wanted to clear up the fines and BS that was holding my license, so that I could avoid this situation entirely. Now I'll be parting it out.
5. I rarely do what I did at all, and this time was just one of those impromptu times. I don't blame the cops for doing their jobs, I even told them the same thing THAT night. However, the helicopter was about 15-20 feet over my head, and shining the spotlight in my face, which is the reasoning for rolling the red light. I still did it though, and I should've just stopped.
6. NO, I didn't put my little girls first, and that has kept me up in tears for several days an nights over the last month. I can't believe what I did, and am so thankful that it wasn't worse.
7. I can't apologize to the guy, because I'm not allowed to contact him. But if somehow he were to see this, I am so very sorry. All I can ask is that you forgive me, I'm human, and made a very dumb mistake.
8. I know I don't owe anyone here an explanation, or an apology, but I think I do.
I am sorry for the impact on our scene that my actions have attributed to. Again, all I can do is ask that you all accept my apology, and forgive me.
I have decided to step out of the car scene almost completely. No more driving at all for me until I get my issues cleared up. I say almost completely because it's been such a big part of my life, as have a lot of you, that I can't just walk away cold turkey. There will be NO MORE STREET EVENTS AT ALL for me, and I urge all of you to heed my warning, it isn't worth it. This was the worst experience for me. The thought of losing my family, my kids, my life, all over the street scene. I know some of you will post up that I'm an idiot, dumbass, etc... I know. I feel [----] big, and I did deserve what I went through, but my kids didn't. I feel like complete ****.
I know I was dumb, and I'm not going to use the "everyone has done it" excuse. We all know most have, but that doesn't mean I should've. I didn't post to get redemption, or anything, just to apologize. I did finish reading the other thread though, and I want to clear one last thing up.
Yes, I do have a suspended license, as do most on this board. Almost all of my tickets are Driving on Suspended. The reckless and whatnot were all dropped, because it wasn't me who was driving. I've been in one other accident, in Tucson, in the rain. I wasn't doing anything wrong, I just slud in my CRX and it was a small fender bender.
Either way, I don't know how long I'm facing yet, and I'm in hopes of avoiding DOC for another punishment. I will accept punishment though, I'd just rather not have to punish my children in the process..
Anyways, I just thought I should clear up a few things. Thanks for taking the time to read this.