getdowngranny
Mr. Fix It
- Joined
- Jan 8, 2006
This past Sunday May 3 2015 was the hardest, worst, and most painful day of my life. My son Joseph Alexander was born at 21 weeks and lived in my arms for 3 hours. He was a beautiful angel and filled my heart with so much love I didn't know I was capable of having. He passed right after he was baptized and I know he is in heaven. My wife and I have cried so much. I have been taking this extremely hard. As I write this I am shaking because of the pain I feel in my heart. It is hard for me to express myself but I am doing this for my son. There is nothing more in this world that I want more than to be a father. I held him so tight and I did not want to let him go. I built a room for him, built his furniture, and had plans to drive him around in the Buick. I don't know how to handle this pain. I have been to war, I have seen the worst of humanity when I was a law enforcement officer, and have been through my fair share of hard times. But this is different. The pain I feel is so much. I am sorry I have used the forum to release myself but I feel this will help. I will be picking up his remains today and I hope I have the strength to cope with my pain. Any words of encouragement will help. Thank you guys.
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